Chronic fatigue patients fight ‘lazy’ label, support awareness
But you don't look sick: San Diegans suffering from mysterious and misunderstood chronic fatigue syndrome battle daily life
In the early 1990s, Bob Deering of Scripps Ranch worked as a shipwright.
One day, while building a deck for a client at their residence, Deering was informed that if he had any questions, the man of the house would be coming home to nap that afternoon: he had chronic fatigue syndrome.
“I made disparaging remarks in my own head,” Deering said. “Chronic fatigue. Right. He’s just lazy.”
Little did he know, however, that it would be a day he wouldn’t soon forget.
“That image popped up again 10 years later when I was diagnosed with CFS,” he said.
Today, after trying to work part-time for several years, Deering cannot work at all. He has been sick since July 2001, when he came down with a flu-like illness. After first being diagnosed with Epstein-Barr virus-a virus that has been linked to CFS-he was finally told he had chronic fatigue syndrome.
“The first thing I had to give up was my work,” Deering said. “I just kept thinking, any day now, I’ll feel better. It took me years to learn that wasn’t going to happen.”
Chronic fatigue syndrome, also known as chronic fatigue and immune dysfunction syndrome, is a complex, mysterious and widely misunderstood illness. Characterized by profound fatigue that is not improved with bed rest, the condition also results in a myriad of other debilitating symptoms.
Nancy Gordon, another local sufferer of CFS, was a licensed clinical social worker in a private practice before a car accident in 1992 changed her life. Gordon was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in 1995, and as she became more paralyzed with pain, fatigue and a loss of cognizance, she finally began to rely on disability in 1998. She was diagnosed with CFS in 2000.
“I try and keep my stress down, which is a constant challenge,” she said. “I exercise whether I feel like it or not. When I’m done, I feel like I’ve accomplished something, which, when you have a chronic illness, is a big deal.”
Deering and Gordon are just two of the 1 to 4 million Americans suffering from CFS. According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, these victims are seriously impaired, and at least one quarter are unemployed or on disability because of the malady. Despite that, only about half have consulted a physician about the condition.
Exhaustion, poor stamina, sleep difficulties and problems with cognitive functioning such as concentration and short-term memory are all signs of CFS, but the condition is also marked with flu-like symptoms, like joint and muscle pain, tender lymph nodes, sore throat and headache.
“Imagine the worst flu you’ve ever had,” said K. Kimberly McCleary, president and chief executive officer for the CFIDS Association of America. “This is really a kind of bone-draining exhaustion, where you feel like it is just a monumental effort to do any normal activities of daily living. Getting up, getting dressed. All of those things just wipe you out completely. When you’re stuck in bed with the flu, you’re stuck in bed with the flu. It’s not a matter of not wanting to get up. You can’t get up.”
Gordon said she has had “terrible sleep problems” and uses a plethora of drugs and vitamins to keep her going, including an anti-depressant and Adderall, which she described as “legalized speed.”
Deering’s sleep patterns are also occasionally disrupted by CFS.
“Because I’m not doing anything all day, I’m tired, but sometimes I can’t sleep at night.”
While the CDC reports that one-third of those with CFS are unable to maintain full-time employment after becoming ill, disability allowances are available to them, just as with any other medically certified illness. The application for benefits can be long and frustrating, however, and coverage is determined on a case by case basis.
Treatment is also resolved on a case by case basis at this point, said McCleary.
Both Deering and Gordon manage their CFS with behavioral and dietary adjustments-and a little encouragement.
“I have a very supportive spouse,” said Deering, who has been married to his wife-who, for the last eight years, has been the sole wage-earner-for 32 years.
Gordon has her own support group at home as well: two Mexican Hairless Xolo service dogs named Toaster and Pink, whose body heat relieves her aching muscles. She said Toaster can often be found around her neck-at home, at the movies or on a plane-while Pink’s main responsibility is to fetch-Gordon’s cell phone, a throw blanket or even any one of the four TV remotes.
“She prevents me from getting more fatigued,” Gordon said.
While Deering and Gordon struggle with refreshing rest and may seem what we simply call “tired,” McCleary said it is unlikely that poor sleep is actually the cause of CFS. It is also not the key indicator of the condition. Instead, she identifies the hallmark trait as what is known as “post-exertional relapse” or “post-exertional malaise.”
“Any minor amount of physical or mental exertion, whether that’s trying to help your third grader with his math homework or going out to the grocery store, may cause the relapse of all your other symptoms,” she said.
But what’s the trigger?
What actually causes the condition and it’s multitude of symptoms, McCleary said, is a question that research has not answered yet-though we may be getting closer.

Exhaustion, poor stamina, sleep difficulties and problems with cognitive functioning are all signs of CFS.
Just weeks ago, in the Oct. 8 issue of Science, researchers at the Whittemore Peterson Institute at the University of Nevada in Reno found that CFS may be linked to the retrovirus XMRV (xenotropic murine leukemia virus-related virus), which is in the AIDS virus family.
The retrovirus, which has also been related to an aggressive form of prostate cancer, was found in 67 percent of the 101 CFS patients tested and only 4 percent of the 218 healthy controls who were tested, McCleary said.
“We are trying to understand what the role of XMRV is and whether that can be an aid in diagnosis and perhaps a route for treatment,” she said. “It’s fighting time right now because it’s kind of re-instilled hope for a lot of people that we’ll find some of these answers in the near term.”
The news also spreads optimism to those who suffer from subsets of CFS, like myalgic encephalomyelitis, a disease akin to CFS that was defined in the 1950s after an outbreak in the United Kingdom, McCleary said.
For now, she said, researchers are relying on current working knowledge, which consists of three ideas. First, it seems likely that sufferers are predisposed to CFS; that is, there is a genetic component involved. On top of that, most people report being in an immune-compromised state at the time they first become ill. The third factor is what is thought to really set off the condition, a bout of flu or mono, or possibly even exposure to environmental toxins.
“From that point, usually a healthy immune system would be able to fight that off and return the body to a healthy state, but what seems to happen in CFS is that after that triggering event, the body goes into kind of a hyper-drive to fight off that infection and never resets itself,” McCleary said. “Most people relate it to, ‘I thought I was coming down with the flu … and I’ve been in bed for 11 years.’”
While clinicians and researchers are striving to make sense of the mysterious illness, CFS patients are busy struggling to be taken seriously.
McCleary attributes the public’s common misconceptions with CFS-that it’s “just tiredness” or even a lifestyle choice in our busy, always accessible lives-to the name. While the symptoms and impact are more like those of multiple sclerosis or lupus, she said, the name suggests something as simple as weekly burnout.
“People laugh and say, ‘Yeah, I’m tired, too,’” said Deering, who has learned to be discreet about revealing his illness.
“I think people who don’t have experience with chronic illness or invisible illness don’t really get it,” Gordon said.
Even a simple task like running errands warrants comments and looks from those who happen to notice her handicap parking permit as she walks into a store, she said.
“I may not be tired going into the store, but when I come out carrying groceries, I will be,” she explained.
It even took some time for her own family to believe the diagnosis.
“I went from having a job to being on disability. Why would someone like me want to live like this?”
While silently hoping for remission, to wake up refreshed and able again, Deering said that until there is a cure, he plans to keep his nose above water.
“You give up an awful lot when you lose your energy,” he said. “But it could be a lot worse. Count your blessings when you do feel better.”
Jennifer Reed is SDNN’s health and wellness editor. She can be reached at jennifer.reed(at)sdnn.com.
Tags: AIDS, Bob Deering, CDC, Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, CFIDS, CFS, chronic fatigue and immune dysfunction syndrome, chronic fatigue syndrome, disability, Epstein-Barr virus, fibromyalgia, flu, K. Kimberly McCleary, lupus, Mexican Hairless Xolo, multiple sclerosis, myalgic encephalomyelitis, Nancy Gordon, science, SDNN, University of Nevada in Reno, Whittemore Peterson Institute, XMRV
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Comment by: Cort Johnson Posted: November 14, 2009, 7:54 pm
Thanks Jennifer for this wonderful article. The word is finally, finally getting out about ‘chronic fatigue syndrome’ This is a disease that strikes at least a million Americans, for which there is no treatment, which causes very high rates of disability and yet which the medical establishment has basically ignored. The federal government spends about $2 a year on research per patient - by far the lowest of any disease. The neglect is almost criminal.
This is a serious disorder; people lose their careers, homes and financial security (not to mention their health) because of it regularly. Thanks for bringing it to light in SDNN.
Comment by: oerganix Posted: November 15, 2009, 7:47 am
Thank you for reporting on this subject without repeating the usual insults and jokes that we who have this terrible illness often have to endure. It’s about time the media developed a serious interest in this illness, even if our government still disdains and trivializes us. Your report is one of the most balanced and accurate that I have seen. Nothing can make up for my 27 years of being treated as crazy and/or lazy, but reports such as yours are a good beginning.
Comment by: Rio Posted: November 15, 2009, 9:35 am
I’ve been following XMRV news. I don’t know whether to be scared or releived. Is this supposed to be good news for CFIDS sufferers? The link between XMRV and AIDS is dreadful.
Comment by: Sandra Posted: November 16, 2009, 7:21 am
Rio, XMRV is a different retrovirus to AIDS.
XMRV is classified as a human gammaretrovirus. Like HIV (a lentivirus), it is part of the same broad family of family of retroviruses — viruses that use the reverse transcriptase enzyme to convert their genetic material from RNA to DNA — but it is more closely related to a group of viruses that cause cancers such as leukemia. Some of same drugs used to treat HIV may be useful for suppressing this virus and it may be transmitted the same way but it is not linked in any causative way to HIV.
Comment by: Michael in Visalia Posted: November 16, 2009, 3:15 pm
Thank you Jennifer for putting into words what I’ve been living with since 1996. It took them 2 yrs. to finally diagnose me with C.F.I.D.S. (that what they called it back then).
I was blessed in 1998 to go into “remission” and was able to return to full time (and then some)work. Then in Sept.of 2008 had surgery to treat diverticulitis and while trying to “rehab” and gain back strength the CFS struck again and I can really relate to Bob Deerings story in your article.
I to am reluctant to share what my disability is with casual acquaintances, but when I do, I use the “Worst case of flu you’ve ever had” analogy.
I too try to count my blessings good days or bad. At least I’m still above ground!
Comment by: John Mitchell jr. Posted: November 16, 2009, 4:07 pm
Two words- Blood supply!
At the recent Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Advisory Committee meeting, Dr. Daniel Peterson of The Whittemore Peterson Institute reported that the WPI unfroze blood from a CFS patient which had been frozen in 1984 and it was able to infect cell cultures, and John Coffin, a retrovirologist with 45 years in the field also told the CFSAC that an as yet unpublished study shows the Japanese Red Cross found a ‘low prevalence’ of XMRV in the Japanese blood supply.
To review- Patients with CFS are- Lazy=No, suffering from an Infectious Retrovirus=Yes.
Comment by: Annie in So CA Posted: November 16, 2009, 5:13 pm
Jennifer, this was very well written in a way that can be easily understood. I really appreciate your efforts to help “PWC’s” (persons with CFIDS) and raise awareness. Thank you very much.
Comment by: Khaly Castle Posted: November 17, 2009, 1:12 am
Thank you, Jennifer! It’s wonderful to see an article that treats CFS as the real tragedy that it is.
Comment by: Manon in Montreal Posted: November 17, 2009, 5:05 am
ANYONE OUT THERE GET R E A L L Y GET THAT THIS IS R E A L??? Yes, it’s frustrating to deal with people’s erroneous perceptions of our illness. But in all fairness, HOW can anyone really believe(let alone understand) the constant and persistant ramifications of this soul crushing experience unless they’ve experienced it themselves?
Comment by: Jean Harrison Posted: November 17, 2009, 10:26 am
Thanks for the article. I do wish that Ms McCleary had given you the update since the article in Science was published, which is that 95% of the CFS blood samples tested by the WPI had XMRV. That this is not a new illness, but one of many manifestations of the same symptoms observed since the 19th C. Unfortunately for current patients, since 1988, the CDC chose to give this illness the name “Chronic Fatigue Syndrome”. Before that it was called, amongst other things, “Epidemic Neuromyesthenia”, and in the UK, “Benign Myaglic Encephalomyelitis”. Just as MS was called “hysterical paralysis” before imaging technology was able to show plaques on the brain, technology has yet to catch up with our disease. It is by no means trivial. Nancy Klimas, MD, a specialist in AIDS and CFS, has said that for the most part her AIDS patients are doing pretty well, her CFS patients remain profoundly ill. Patients from an outbreak in 1955 in the UK which caused the closing of a hospital, remain ill to this day. The people stricken in that outbreak were the staff - doctors and nurses. Comparatively few cases fully resolve, though many people do improve. Others go into a relapse remit cycle. There are some 5,000 studies which show biological abnormalities in CFS patients. There are treatments of varying efficacy but no cure. Just as Parkinson’s is diagnosed by symptom -there is no test confirming Parkinson’s amongst the living - so CFS diagnosed by symptom cluster. The severity of the disease varies significantly (as in MS) from those who are bed-ridden & even tube fed, to those who are able to function pretty well.
The reason that the WPI went looking for XMRV was that there is a well documented disturbance in an anti-viral pathway known as RnASE-l, similar to that found in prostate cancer. Most disturbingly is that there is a 75% -77% cancer rate in CFS patients. This is not a benign illness. Obviously those who quite their jobs and go onto disability do see doctors. Prior to being diagnosed in 1994 I had graduated from an Ivy League college, lived in the UK, learned to be a more than competent oil painting conservator and done a great deal of sailing, even completing a transatlantic race on a 36′ boat.I had three severe exacerbations of symptoms, once in 1956, another in 1980 which lasted a year, the last in 1994 which I have had only slight improvement. I had not considered a diagnosis of CFS, and was somewhat affronted when I was told that what caused the devastating symptoms I experienced, including sleep reversal, terrible headaches, sore throats, all over pain, severe flu symptoms, neurological signs (short and long term memory loss, orthostatic hypotension, muscle spasms) and the feeling of being all but attached to the bed. Friends who have gone on to cancer have commented on what a relief it is, as medics and friends treat them well; for the first time in years they have felt validated. A sad commentary on the ignorance about this disease.
Comment by: Maurine Murphy Posted: November 17, 2009, 11:59 am
Thank you so much, all of you, for once again giving me hope and allowing me to use this name although my diagnosis is not complete… I remained as quiet, as possible, until I found CFIDS Assn.of America… Then with one MD’s clinical words and my own knowledge… Following CFIDS FINDINGS…I know it is just a matter of time and more tests until I am fully diagnosed with this disease and I won’t have to be the ‘crazy’ in my family anymore…..
I am so grateful for each article published in honor of the millions of us who suffer from, CFS/ME/CFIDS…
Comment by: Sandy/Fighting Fatigue Posted: November 17, 2009, 6:29 pm
Thanks so much for this great article. It is refreshing to read an article on ME/CFS that is not the same information that we all already know. I too am concerned about the XMRV and its relation to cancer. Just one more thing we have to worry about.
Comment by: Post Viral Fatigue Posted: November 22, 2009, 2:22 pm
It is possible to recover from this, I did but it took about 3 years. My full story is on postviralfatigue.me.uk
Comment by: Petra Posted: November 25, 2009, 7:24 am
I echo the concern about the blood supply. Shouldn’t people with XMRV-associated conditions refrain from donating blood until this is all sorted out?
Comment by: Amy Clouse Posted: November 25, 2009, 8:13 pm
Thanks for an informative article. I’ve had fibro since ‘85, CFS with it starting in ‘97, finally too sick to work probably way before ‘08, but I’m stubborn. I hate when my brain won’t work right; I can’t find words I need. I’m a nurse,teacher, computer nerd; now, I’m just a tired, hurting person who wants back the life she had before this disease but knows it’s not likely to happen.
I also know there are a lot of other devastating diseases out there, & that medical science is lazy - from calling sickle cell imaginary to calling MS hysterical paraylysis, too many doctors prefer to blame the sick person rather than try & find out what’s going on. I worked hard all those years, fighting this, & having to give way a little more each year. But for those who dole out disability, apparently that’s not enough; I’m being scrutinized as if I were Bernie Madoff - more. If they’d scrutinized him half as much, they’d have stopped him before he destroyed so many lives. But right now, I’d swear the disability people think I’m more of a crook than he is! 22 years working sick and many more working well, apparently isn’t enough.
Anything that will show how bad this illness is, is most welcome!
Comment by: Deb Greene Posted: November 26, 2009, 12:34 am
I too, am worried about the cancer connection. I’m already pre-disposed, genetically. I also believe there could be a genetic connection to CFS; “Tiredness” ‘runs in our family’. I’d like to ad that I know I’ve never had blood given to me; so I wonder about that being connected. So many people Really DON’T understand the full impact of this “ailment”. I also believe there must be a connection with the endocrine system; along with all the other info. expressed in the article above - by Jennifer Reed. I pray for energy and strenth, everyday, to just get through the day. I live alone and without much of a support system - which makes it more difficult in some ways; but I don’t have to take care of a family anymore; so that’s less taxing on my energy. But, I don’t have the joy of having my family being around very often. We’ve sacrificed so much! It’s time to get serious about finding helpful and hopeful solutions!
Comment by: B. Cavalier Posted: November 28, 2009, 5:59 pm
Thank you, Jennifer. This is the most well-written story I’ve found concerning CFS. The ability to maintain normal relationships is frequently or extensively compromised with this iillness. The resulting isolation can be more devastating than physical symptoms. Our need for others to understand the impact of CFS is overpowering even though we can barely believe ourselves what/how this happened.